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Saturday, October 27, 2007

can i start everything over again ?
back to the beginning ?
can i ? ...
<3

10/27/2007 05:55:00 PM.

Friday, October 26, 2007

recently school made the announcement about recruiting OGLs for next year's first 3 months orientation
HAHA THERES NO FIRST 3 MONTHS ! THERES ONLY FIRST 1 MONTH ! okay lame
i dont know if its really 1 month only or whatever . anyway
was thinking whether to sign up for it
was an ogl before for JAE
haha there were more ogls than jae-intake people
loads of ponners
and ogls have to do loads of tiring and saikang stufffs . but we get loads of breaks while they having their subject talks
and i liked my class (:
managed to click with them and my fellow ogls
interesting experience
however, i dont even know if i can make it to J2 next year .. let alone being an ogl
6th nov will reveal all i guess
time to prepare tissssues .
soe kor reminded me about his chalet just now
9-11th nov
its a weekend
sooo i should be coming
hahahha . k i'll try my best la (:
today was quite a crazy day :D
met up with peiwen after school cos she going to my house for cookie baking
saw yeejean with her and asked her toooo
managed to tempt her with romantic princess LOL !
the 3 of us went to ljs for lunch
saw keith on the way
bullied him and got bullied =x
than he joined us for lunch at ljs and we managed to tempt him to come to my house also hahaha
so me yeejean peiwen keith went to my house
yj and keith made a really funny bet
hahahaha ! cant wait to see it happen :D
anyways yj tried out the SECRET piano piece (:
pw used my com to watch romantic princess
i proceeded with my bakingggg
all of us took turns at stirring hhahaha
the cookies werent really cookie-shape
it was more of a flat cake shape
but its nice k ! (:
keith went to study for awhile dan he buay tahan decided to use the com hahahha ...
a levels coming alrdy leh dude .. lol
dan we practised our op
yj and pw editted their speech hahaha was really funny la
keith fell asleep on my bed
my bed too comfortable alrdy la -_-
he sleep til v shuang hahaha
dan me yj pw went to watch tv
my parents came back at around 6plus
my mum kept offering us fooood . LOL !
my daddy asked 'whats this brown mix?'
when we told him its the cookie mix, he went 'oh.. no wonder i smelt burnt coookies'
my cookies not that burnt k !!! lol ..
my mum asked me 'got offer your friends drinks anot ? go offer them now ..'
hahahaha .. tempted yj and pw with the chocolate fudge cake :P
than yeah the 3 of them decided to go back so i offered to send them to the bus stop
when we said bye to my parents, my mum told the 3 of them say exams over alrdy hor ? than come more often to my place to play .. can come over anytime
hahahaha . dan she said they come over to see my nicenice new room is it ? hahaha . yes and the kitchen too . its nice la after renovations (:
dan when i reach back home my mum ask if they got mention about the house being messy anot
im like thinking .. i think my home is neater than theirs ? lol .
dan my dad say 'huh ? like that also messy ? .. where got ..'
than yeahhh
shelby lent me another book today called Pants On Fire :D YAY !
xiao beeee ! SWEEEEETS :D HAHAHHAA kidding :P
THANK GOD OP IS GETTING BETTER AND BETTER !! :D i prayed, and He answered ! Amen ! (:
she says she's better now but she's still incomplete
<3

10/26/2007 10:14:00 PM.

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

oh my
i forgot to mention about the kbox trip on sunday with suki rongzhou and marco (:
met up with marco at city hall
roamed about
tried to find donut factory to no avail
ate pepperlunch at foodcourt (YUM!)
met dear suki at the mrt station (:
decided to go marina square de kbox
so off we went there
had a really fun and crazy time singing my hearts out there ! (:
rongzhou came later cos he woke up late hahahaha
had a great time with the 3 of them .. :DDDD
sang til about 5plus
than we went to seoul garden to eat :D
had a really really great time with them ... hope to meet up with my beloved hjms soon .. miss them so so much ..
<3

10/23/2007 10:00:00 PM.

i like this song ..
`About You Now (Sugababes)
It was so easy that night
Should have been strong, yeah I lied
Nobody gets me like you
Couldn't keep hold of you then
How could I know what you meant
There was nothing to compare to

I know everything changes
All the cities and faces
But I know how I feel about you
There's a mountain between us
But there's one thing im sure of
That I know how I feel about you

Can we bring yesterday back around
'Cus I know how I feel about you now
I was dumb, I was wrong, I let you down
But I know how I feel about you now

All that it takes one more chance
Don't let our last kiss be our last
Give me tonight and I'll show you

I know everything changes
I don't care where it takes us
'Cus I know how I feel about you

Can we bring yesterday back around
'Cus I know how I feel about you now
I was dumb, I was wrong, I let you down
But I know how I feel about you now

Not a day pass me by
Not a day pass me by
When I don't think about you
And there's no moving on
'Cus I know you are the one
And I can't be without you

Can we bring yesterday back around
'Cus I know how I feel about you now
I was dumb, I was wrong, I let you down
But I know how I feel about you now

Can we bring yesterday back around
'Cus I know how I feel about you now
I was dumb, I was wrong, I let you down
But I know how I feel about you now

But I know how I feel about you now

Yes I know how I feel about you now

wth is happening now
whatever happened to the 'forever' ?
you drive me crazy
how can i turn to you now
when you dont even see my existence right infront of you
this morning i so much wanted to just pluck up the courage and say hello
only to find out you dont even seeee
so much for 'i'll still be there'
so much for 'we can still be good friends'
why am i even shedding tears for someone who doesnt see, doesnt care ?
WHY ??? ...
you happy with this now ?
yes i admit its my fault for ignoring you
but why didnt you ask yourself why i am doing that
never mind ... dont know if you'll see this
i dont even know if you will care
saw you in school
and only yangrong bothered to say hello
and i just stared dumbly , wanting so much to say hello
but i guess ... it doesnt matter anymore
went to lib to print pw stuff
met keith there and hahahaahhahaha he knows about the picture ;DDD
i nearly died in his hands -.-
after school
was near the walkway
you walked past
my back turned towards you
leejiexi and jovinayeo scolded me
ask me why i told them i regret my decision and yet i never even turn around and say hello
all i could say was ... haiz .. ni dou bu zai hu le .
i may be wrong
i hope im wrong
but this is the kinda impression im getting
i dont want . really dont want
i used to think guys who made girls cry were jerks
but i never really thought about why girls even cried for guys
until i realised that its because
when you love someone so so so much its hurting, the only option is to let go ..
jiu ying wei tai ai ta le .
anyways went jiexi's house to play mahjong with jovina and shelby
hahaha jiexi spent duno how long to search for the mahjong tiles
jovina found it in like 5 minutes lolol . so funny
played quite a few rounds of mahjong ;D
so fun !!! (:
went back home at about 6+ ..
today chi compo discussion included a topic about 'zhen xi' (aka treasure/cherish)
i immediately thought about us
maybe i didnt know how to zhen xi
wo zhi cuo le .. is it too late now ? =(
<3

10/23/2007 09:17:00 PM.

Saturday, October 20, 2007

hahaha today's a v funny day (:
woke up at 12+pm =x
saw xuelian on the bus !! ;DD
havent seen my mummmy in a v long time hehehehe (:
we chatted (((: than i met yanshi at the mrt station
train-ed to somerset for church
and haha me and michelle suaned canice the whole time (:
but canice kept going on about pork
she says i have something against pork
no i dont loh .. i just dont like the smell of pork
but if its in the form of bakua and pork floss dan i like ;D
after service went foodcourt with them
suan canice the whole way through
she's like standing there for me to suan so i couldnt help it =x
hahaha ..
thaddeus was funny la
he said he could lick his elbow and asked me to treat him to a drink if he did it
i canceled the bet last minute =x and he really managed to lick his elbow
dont know how in the world he managed to do it ah
God's grace ba HAHAHA (:
and he actually spoke in chinese !!! and he gave me $2 and treated me to dessert
hahaha thanks dude ! ;DDD yay
and he kept going on about doing somersaults .. right .. lol ..
and i saw benjamin tay !!!!
hahahaha omigosh
had to get joseph to ask if he's benjamin =x so paiseh can
joseph and thad were like saying how to get ben's attention and thad offered to be my backup singer
how nice of him -____-
anyways yeah he still remembers me hohoho
and he actually lives opposite raphael !
how come last time i go his place there i never saw raphael around
oh right, i wasnt in hope church last time . hahah
trained back with yanshi
had a nice sleep on the mrt (((:
k off to watch romantic princessss .
~~ithinkimissyou~~
<3

10/20/2007 11:28:00 PM.

Friday, October 19, 2007

wah long long time no update alrdy
SHUN ! I FINISHED WATCHING ISWAK ! sooo i kept my promise and came here to blog ! hahahha ...
anyway many many many things happened over the past 2 weeks
promos are finished (both meanings) *kope from shelby's blog muahahhaha =x*
and so's my relationship ...
calls made, tears shed
and i ended it all
i thought i could handle it well
i thought i would be happier
but ... more often than not in class i would just sit there and stare into thin air wishing how i could turn back the clock
more often than not i find my eyes scanning the whole area to see if you're there
and i delude myself by walking past and pretending you dont exist
wth is wrong with me
k emo stuff aside
yesterday had the financial talk
hahaha apple was sooo funny !
she was just sitting beside me and laughing and laughing like dont know what ;D
oh gosh the new timetable sucks like dont know what !!!
so many hours of pw and chinese !! ahhhhh =((((
need to start chionging OP .. thank God i'm meeting up with suki this sunday !! YAY I MISS HER SOOO MUCH <3
PEIWEN AHHH ! DONT BE LATE EVERY MORNING LA .... lol ...
its jerome's birthday today ! ;D
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY SPIDEY CHAPPATTI ! OLD LIAO LOH =PPPP
hahaha i suddenly recalled going to study with keith jerome and ming key
they were so funny in the library
and i ended up reading a book -.-
so unproductive laaaa
dinner was uber funny alsooo lol those guys ah ... crap la . lol
went to ttsh with peiwen for my check up
doctor pressed my wounds, asked me to cough
and tadah, $23 please
so easy money ... goshh ..
decided not to go for class outing at sentosa =(
went with peiwen to army museum
ahhaha its quite nice (:
i like the shoooooting ;D
okay i shall be a nice girl and help amanda advertise her church's fundraising website
please support fundraising !
(:
they've got great bookmark and notebook designs plus cuttteeeeee custom made shoes ! ;DDD
got back chinese results
average la got a C
tcher says i look down on chinese
haha so true =x
'chinese ? shui guan ta .. shan yi bian qu la !' =x
kitty was quite funny during pw today
asked me to help her man the visualiser for her cause ... haha ok nvm =x
ate lunch with jiexi jovina alex benseah
jiexi and jov said some stuff worth thinking over
they are so right ...
i initiated it . so i should go solve it .
ahhh so confusing la ..
okays i'll be back to blog again tomorrooooowwwwww ;DDD
never knew how great crunchyroll was !
ROMANTIC PRINCESS !!! (:
泪 (Milu Bing's Tears)
深夜里无法习惯没有你
不愿意再走下去
这距离痛得我不能呼吸
难忘记你的失去

多少眼泪都无所谓
我闭上眼睛不能入睡
只希望你给我一些安慰

这些眼泪我无所谓
真心的对待最珍贵
我回头想起爱情的甜美
永远不后悔

深夜里无法习惯没有你
不愿意再走下去
这距离痛得我不能呼吸
难忘记你的失去

多少眼泪都无所谓
我闭上眼睛不能入睡
只希望你给我一些安慰

这些眼泪我无所谓
真心的对待最珍贵
我回头想起爱情的甜美
永远不后悔

牵领我进入睡梦追随
重温过去我们两梦中相依偎
虽是梦幻愿沉醉

多少眼泪都无所谓
我闭上眼睛不能入睡
只希望你给我一些安慰

这些眼泪我无所谓
真心的对待最珍贵
我回头想起爱情的甜美
永远不后悔
<3

10/19/2007 04:15:00 PM.

Thursday, October 04, 2007

today's a good day (:
school was urm .. okayy
chem and econs really useful (:
i dont know why econs tcher every lesson sure call my name one =\
k never mind
school ended
we slacked at some corner in school
really nice place (: but had to wait til 1.10 for the dear gate to be officially opened
i shant rant here how unreasonable the rules are and all
apparantly this can be used as evidence against me should anything happen hurhurhur
it doesnt hurt to tell THE TRUTH (:
ate yoshi with classmates today hahaha so funny (:
melvin ponned school today wooohooo !
went to find him
thought he was sleeeping but that dude didnt hear his hp ringing -.-
anywaysss chatted with mel
really nice talk (:
anddd urmm talked about loads of stuffs
but i dont know what to do next
my heart tells me to focus .. im getting numb to this
oh yeah i straightened my hair today !!! hahahaha mel helped me straighten some parts of my hair haha gosh so difficult la
but i like ! my hair's like much neater ! ;D but the effect's temporary only =(((
anyways we went to amk hub, ate pepper lunch and melvin treated me yay thanks ! ;D hahaa
than we went to the ntuc fairprice to walk around
played arcade
sneaked in cos i wore a jacket
played house of the dead 4 and aahhhwwwwww we didnt clear the 2nd stage lol
loads of fun ((((:
than we went to grandma's place for dinner
i miss my grandma and her cooking la ... my grandma thought i forgot all about her
awwww man why would i ! i loveee her so much ((: <3 !
so yeahhhh than i bus-ed home
thanks to mel, im a happy girl again (:
wheeeeee ~ i want my hair straightener please ;DDDD
so many questions left hanging
so many questions left unasked
so many questions left unanswered
but i dont know where to begin ..
what are we suppose to do
when everything right goes wrong ..
<3

10/04/2007 11:16:00 PM.

saw this on one of the tables last week
i don't believe
in the smile
that you leave
when you walk away
or say goodbye
where is your heart ?
cause i don't really feel you
where is my heart ?
is it not there anymore ?
am i giving up on this ? .. am i ? ..
when a mirror is cracked, smashed into pieces
you try to fix it all back
but you never realise that no matter how well you fixed it
you can never hide the cracks, whether they are invisible or not
for they are always there ...
~~itsjustlikehowwearenow~~
gp and chinese was a utter flop
but i'll leave everything to God
if i do my best, He'll do the rest
i need to turn back to Him now
i need to stop taking everything for granted
~~i need to stop thinking that im in this all alone~~ ...
how could i have forgotten that God has always been there for me
He never failed me
even when everything was going wrong, even when i was disappointed time and again by the world, He was always there
how could i have been so blind, so oblivious to that fact ?
Father, i want to go back to You
like a small child holding Daddy's hands
i need You right here with me now Lord .. i need the strength now
sidetrack abit
i think today was a stupid day
why in the world release us early when you dont even let us get out of the school after our lessons end just cos its not 1.30pm
its no wonder why the gate climbings start
but wuahahaha we still managed to get out thanks to our dear CT (:
actually fell asleep in bk today omg how unproductive ! =(
got home, slept AGAIN ahhhhh ! >.<
but its ok
means more studying tonight
got to focus on maths and bio ...
chem oh chem oh chem, please forgive me while i abandon you for maths and bio
rest assure, i'll be back (:
<3

10/04/2007 12:01:00 AM.