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Thursday, September 27, 2007

i think my printer's gonna die on me soon
judging by the amount of papers i just printed
wuahahaha thank God ink not run out (:
shit i cant find the answers to nyjc's bio papers =((((
oh well i just realised how little time i have left
had a great time talking to weishun on msn hhahaahaha ;D us and our printer song -.-
school was okay today
but this morning was ... haizzzz ...
i wonder how long are we gonna keep the silence
chem test was crap laaaa =( sianzxzx
anyways wore vanessa's specs in class today (:
mrng was like saying who's this new girl hahaha -.-
saw jerome in the canteen ! ;DD
hahaa was supposed to do last minute revision for chem test but ended up talking to jerome
haha poooor him he really doesnt like his class huh ...
had chem for 4 hours back to back ahhh tiring ah .. but fruitful (:
and erms .. my hp card value too low le, cant send msg .. can only receive .. so if you all sent msgs and i didnt reply im so sorry k
maybe me and peiwen should meet at a different time
i feel like a stranger every morning now ..
thank God got peiwen to talk to me .. if not i'll just zi bi and walk by myself if peiwen doesnt come ..
went home with saffir today
he's so funny la hahahaha and his jokes -.- ohgoshhhh ! haha
gonna go studying with weishun on sunday
i rly neeeed to focus on bio oh gosh =(
xihuanyigerenbuyidingyaohetazaiyiqi
zhiyaotakuaile,zijiyehuikuaile
zhiyaotakuaile,zuoshemedouwusuowei
jiusuantongku,takaixingjiukeyile
wobukule,jianchiqilai,yebietaobile
yonggandequmiandui,danniyouruhene..
<3

9/27/2007 11:29:00 PM.

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Gotta Go My Own Way ` - vanessa hudgens
[Gabriella]
I gotta say what's in my mind
Something about us
doesn't seem right these days
life keeps getting in the way
Whenever we try, somehow the plan
is always rearranged

It's so hard to say
But I've gotta do what's best for me
You'll be ok..

[Chorus]
I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way

Don't wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up
and I watch them fall everytime
Another colour turns to grey
and it's just too hard to watch it all
slowly fade away

I'm leaving today 'cause I've
gotta do what's best for me
you'll be ok..

[Chorus

[Troy]
What about us?
What about everything we've been through?

[Gabriella]
What about trust?

[Troy]
You know I never wanted to hurt you

[Gabriella]
and what about me?

[Troy]
What am I supposed to do?

[Gabriella]
I gotta leave but I'll miss you

[Gabriella]
So
I've got to move on and be who I am

[Troy]
Why do you have to go?

Gabriella
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand

[Troy]
I'm trying to understand

[Gabriella]
We might find our place in this
world someday
but at least for now

[Troy]
I want you to stay

[Gabriella]
I wanna go my own way
I've got to move on and be who I am

[Troy]
What about us?

[Gabriella]
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand

[Troy]
I'm trying to understand

[Gabriella]
We might find our place in this
world someday
but at least for now
I gotta go my own way
I gotta go my own way
I gotta go my own way

this song says it all
i liked this song the first time i heard it on HSM2
and just heard it again on 987fm
studied after school in the lib
did maths
completed tutorial 4.1
but gahhhh saffir didnt pick up my call ! =(
did very badly for chinese test =(((
failed for the first time..
tcher was v disappointed with me ... so am i ..
anyways was in the lib with shermaine and saffir .. doing maths dan felt someone hit my shoulder very hard
turned to look who was that idiot
turned out to be jerome hahahaa =x
so we talktalktalk than i asked him for help in some maths questions
he taught rachel how to do tooo (: hahah and he says its my fault he couldnt complete the questions in time because i kept talking to him loh
excuse moi ! duno who's the one who keep wanting to talk while im doing my work loh .. and he stuffed one whole mooncake into his mouth la ... omigoshhh .. typical jerome . haha
talked to peiwen and yeejean alsoooo (:
anyways talked to peiwen and jerome about some stuff ..
andd yeah peiwen walked back to school
went to interchange with jerome
talked about v funny stuffs along the way
stupid jerome purposely keep asking the same questions la ...... haahhhaha he ah make me laugh til nearly peng laa hahhaha -.-
than yeah talked dan took our buses back
on the bus back merl msg asking where i was
she was at ljs with sufen and asked if i wanna come
haha of course i said yes ! ;D
so i bus-ed back to northpoint and went to ljs to find them
omg i miss them so sososososoos much !!! ;DDDDD
haha we talktalktalk dan merl said she felt like taking neoprints and i told her i felt the same way too
sufen immediately said 'than what are we waiting for? let's go!' hahah or something like that (:
i love my haojiemeis sosososososo much ...
took neoprints twice hahahaha
will try to post them up soon (:
i loveeeee the time spent with them .. hope to meet up with them after my promos soon ..
merlyn .. sufen .. weiying .. suklum .. weishun .. you all are missed .. seriously ..
and thanks merl sufen and shun for the advices and comfort (:
thank God for you all (:
i know now no matter what i say doesnt rectify the situation
but ... i am so sorry .. please forgive me ...
its not your fault .. its all my own fault and problem ..
bu yao dui wo na me hao ..
i will just feel more bad ..
right now as im typing this
im crying .. i rly dont want to hurt you
zhen de dui bu qi ...
the problem is with myself ...
running away doesnt solve anything
but to me, its the appropriate solution now . to everything .
im tired .. really am ..
<3

9/25/2007 11:11:00 PM.

Sunday, September 23, 2007

oh my gosh look at the time now
im so dead
i have piano in like ... 6 hours time and here i am blogging -.-
im feeling quite sad and frustrated now ..
had a mini argument over something stupid on msn just now ?
i was ignored ? for the first time ever
maybe i deserved it
i was looking for someone to argue with so that i could just yell everything out
i got what i wanted
but why is it i dont feel any better at all ?
i dont like the feeling at all ....
and i dont wanna see the other side of you either .. i dont want ..
it scares me you know ..
why're things going wrong now ?
on a bright side
i discovered this radio tuner on windows media player
yeah call me a noob . whatever la ;D
i found this awesome radio station that plays awesome contemporary christian hits
it had my favourite like HIllsongs' Til I See You !
ohmygosh im happppyyyy ! (:
now its playing Casting Crowns' Praise You With The Dance ! ;DDDDD
watched starship troopers today alsoooo
hahahaha its damn gross la
its quite scary leh
like the people you see turned out to be someone totally different ....
but well, thats life.
<3

9/23/2007 03:05:00 AM.

Saturday, September 22, 2007

woooots
i wanna declare that WR IS FINALLY OVER !!!!!! AMEN !!!!! ;DDDDDDDDDD
so wont you break free
wont you break free
get up and dance in His love
after 2 nights of chionging WR
i guess thats the most 'memorable' part of pw ..
only had 45minutes of sleep yesterday night
was conferencing with fungmei and eunice for pw
had to pay the price for so so little sleep in school
uber tired .. i could just fall asleep standing still
could tell i was v tired
practically couldnt keep my eyes open
ponned pe and maths lecture to finish up wr
russ and eunice did the touch ups and all cos me and fungmei took a nap in the lib
first time in my entire life i got so little sleep over schoolwork
v guilty towards jovina though
our group had to make her wait to ask her print our stuffs =(
sorry nanny !! >.<
after school ate with weiee saffir shelby & alex
went popular before that hahahahah so funny la they
went home
first thing bath dan went to sleep
thought would only get like 1hour of sleep cos i wanna watch tv
in the end slept all the way from 7+pm to this morning 11+ .. oh gosh hahahahah
received this funny msg
so weird, i no reaction or feelings at all
~~am i starting not to care ?~~
okays im boreddd now
maybe will get back to studying later
promos are coming
im scared =((( lost..
this is our love
hearts joined as one
desperate for all You want
Lord break down these walls
see how we run
<3

9/22/2007 02:16:00 PM.

Thursday, September 20, 2007

okay
everything's fine with me and my mum le (: thank God
moment i came home, mum asked me if i stayed in B class ward during my hospital stay hahaha she ah so blur ..
than my mum told me she know i stayed up til about 3+am for my project work
i told her that i wont be sleeping tonight again cos of project work
andd she said she'll prepare chicken essence for me to drink to keep me alert hahaha haiz i love my mum now (:
so hard to imagine that last night we had this shouting and cold war and now everything's ok
oh yeah , my last time church's pastor and wife (my parents' good friends) came to visit just now
long time no see them le ..
anyways, even though i only had about 3hours plus of sleep i still managed to get through 4 hours of chem yay (:
but chem organic test was difficult .. hahaha i think im gonna fail it la =(((( but luckily tcher said dont need to copy reagents and conditions 10 times if not my weekends will be burnt
did project work todayyyy erms i attituded one of my pw members =x
was quite fed up la .. didnt really understand what she was saying and vice versa and i just scolded her the F . =x
okays back to project work i guess
although currently only got me and fungmei online
oh yeah need to bring chem notes for peiwen tomorrow hahahaha she ah ...
this morning i attituded yangrong and shiyuan gosh i felt so guilty =\ sorrryyyy cause im rly rly tired ..
anddd haha fell asleep during morning assembly
sleep til so shuang . k i think my post's v random la . haha k back to project work
<3

9/20/2007 09:30:00 PM.

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

i am fucking pissed at my mum right now
i dont care if you think im being ultra vulgar now but im sorry
i need to get this feeling out of my system NOW .
fuck, just because she's in a bad mood, she goes around scolding everyone in the house for whatever little shit we do
screams at me for every stupid thing, even a simple thing like my clothes . ITS JUST CLOTHES DAMN IT ! WHAT THE FISHHH
im already damn tired from a long day in school, and project work and stuff
i just wanna come back to a peaceful home and do my own work
is it that hard ?
i dont need you to scream and yell at every thing i do just because you're in a bad mood over stupid stuffs today
and hello, you confiscated my handphone and you still dare question me when the bill came ? you are holding on to my handphone for goodness sake
fuck, i hate this
i seriously hate you right now
and hello, you're the reason why i dont come home early every day
and stupid things like pocket money doesnt work on me okay
cant you be understanding, just for once ? is it so hard ?
i come home and try to study
cant you even let me study in peace ? cant you just see how hard i am trying not to get retained ? why cant you just open your eyes and see and stop all this shit for once ?
God .. i need strength right now .. i cant go through all this alone .. i need You ..
but on the bright side, had dinner with jerome
haha he's so funny lahhh
great way to destress
laugh everything off
but it still hurts ..
<3

9/19/2007 11:42:00 PM.

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

i must say something here
thank God i passed my chem organic test today !!!
although i did study for it .. but still there was always this nagging fear that i will fail the test =(
organic chem is the bane of my life other than physics . LOL !
seriously ... organic chem is TOUGHHHHh . ahhhh but thank God i managed to pass the test ! yay ! ;D
although have to copy 5 times for the reagent and conditions but still i passed woohoo thats the main point =x
its yeejean's birthday ~~today~~ yesterday !
happy belated birthday yeejean !! ;D
celebrated her birthday at some ahmoi cafe or whatever with jerome meixing peiwen keith edward and terence
hahahaha fun fun fun ! ;D laugh til peng
especially guess the number and the forfeit
eh curry with teh tarik is nice ok .. although i kena like twice
jerome kena twice
edward kena once but his was the worst ! LOL ... pooooor edward =p
he had to eat curry drenched kaya toast with half-boiled eggs and drink curry with teh tarik omg EEEEEEYUCCCCKKKKKSSSS !!!!!!!
something v funny happened this morning
yangrong and shiyuan were crapping as usual and i heard my name like quite a few times la
i think they purposely wanna see my reaction so i just ignore
than duno shiyuan or yangrong said something like tonight must sleep in the hall liao hahaha (inside joke), dan i turned around and said 'no loh, you cant even enter the lift alrdy (:'
HAHAHA shiyuan's reaction was priceless hahaha me and yangrong were like laughing =x so bad hor haha
k i screwed up chinese test today gahhhhhh
so difficult la ... =(
eeeeeeeeyer all my msn emoticons are gone =( haiz
hahaah crapped with jerome and keith at the bus interchange awhile, than we all went home
omg something damn funny happened in the canteen today
i opened my back to put my wallet in it after buying some food
dan i found this blown up rubber glove with funny faces drawn on it !!
OMG WE ALL LAUGH TIL PENG !! SO FUNNNNYYYY !!!!!! culprit was saffir haha !
and the rubber glove is shelby's boyfriend hahahahahhaa (:
k off to maths
start to psycho myself k, I LOVE MATHS. NOT. >.<
<3

9/18/2007 12:24:00 AM.

Saturday, September 15, 2007

didnt go to school today
partly cause mum woke me up at about 7 .. which is quite late alrdy so decided not to go to school
went back to sleep again til .. quite late i guess
stayed home and did chem and read through econs
im feeling the pressure now
promos coming in .. less than 20days time
haiz . so many distractions here and there
got to learn to compromise and focus !
shiyuan brought me brunch ;D thanks <3
quite fed up today
dad called saying carpenter coming today to fix the shelves and asked me to clear the shoe cabinet
and trust me, theres ALOT of stuff inside the cabinet . 3 compartments high la
and my brothers not at home
left me alone to do the shitzx work .
carpenter came
and tadah, cause its too late, he says next monday than fix the shelves
my gosh i was effing pissed la all my efforts for nothing !
but i kept my cool and just put all the stuff back .. oh well ..
my wound oozed pus today
haha gross >.<
and hahaha i think im officially being known as a pig la
to the extent that im being drawn as a pig on someone's worksheet
how nice ..
is there ssp tomorrow ?
maybe go out study ba
hahahaha im not sleeepy and i dont know why
think i slept too much today
im in love with chris daughtry's songs (:
especially its not over .. watched the little mermaid movie on disney channel today ! ;DDD NICEEEE .
tomorrow got high school musical 2 again ;D YAY YAY YAY
this love is killing me
but you're the only one
<3

9/15/2007 01:41:00 AM.

Friday, September 14, 2007

hello !
thanks to sophie, my blog's ok !
thanks ! MUACKS ;D
the feeling of not going school for 2 consecutive days is uber shiokness (:
and i actually managed to sit down proper for like 4 hours straight just doing chem tutorial ?
is that a miracle or what
promos in like less than 20 days
freaking scared =(
its weiying's birthday yesterday !
happy belated birthday my dear haojiemei !!! ;DDDD
anyways im back in school today
i mean yesterday
abit disorientated
but the main reason why i came back to school despite having 14days mc was because of this one thing : CHEMISTRY !!!
had 4 hours of chem back to back okay !
MY GOSH ..... organic chemistry really screws people up >.<
but its ok
time passed quite quickly (:
learned quite alot toooo
hope i didnt miss much >.<
during assembly
new vp gave a serious talk
and urm i shant say anything here
had dinner with peiwen and yeejean hahahahaa ;DDD
met suki ! (:
i think pengyong spies on me hahahah i have no idea how he knows so much
got keith to buy kitty's present ;D
i hope she likes it though
we forgot to mention to keith that she doesnt like pink ! oh nooooo ..
bio test postphoned to next week ! YAY ;D
NO TESTS LATER !
should i go to schooool ?
daughtry's songs are the ultimate !!! ;DDD
haha i think going back to school will tear my wounds open
its like the laughing keeps coming non-stop
crazy antics of my class (:
before assembly was quite funny
yeejean and peiwen didnt want to move infront of their class line cos the both of them plus me kitty jiexi wanted to talktalk hahaha so they were trying to get people to move infront and yay managed to get lirong and her bf to move infront ;D thanks ah
got loads on my mind now
i dont know where to start
feeling v confused
i dont like this feeling at all.
on another note, mrng (my CT;D) got the award for mr energizer HAHAHA ! totally unexpected ! now our whole class calls him mr energizer ;D i think he's v happy hahaha (:
and this is the 2nd time i saw my name on a table during tutorial
something like fadzil loves hazel HAHAHA confirm not me ah i dont know why fadzil
yeejean told me she saw my name on another table somewhere hahahah weird la to see my name although its a different person (I THINK).
k end of random post.
bye.
<3
<3

9/14/2007 12:20:00 AM.

Saturday, September 01, 2007

woke up quite late today
=\ dan prepared to go out
was quite late hahaahaha sorrry keith and jerome !
went for service today with those 2 jokers hahahahaha ;D
felt v spiritually refreshed today
after service the 3 of us went to pastamania to eat
hhaahaha jerome ah .. he go kope some spaghettis la
typical uncle -.-
than we went to a spot in cineleisure and started camwhoring
hahaha did lots of crazy poses
and started talking and gossiping and crapping
(((((((: those 2 are uber funny laaaa . ;D
jerome, please dont shave your hair !! -.-
is this how it feels like to be second priority ?
to feel the unimportance ?
maybe this is my retribution ..
to be second priority, for once
i dont like this feeling at all .

9/01/2007 11:06:00 PM.

oh i forgot to mention
me and peiwen actually wore army uniform for the cargo net station
SHIOKKKK . will post the pictures up soon ! ;D
OH
i think aly and aj's Potential Breakup Song is damn cute (:
<3

9/01/2007 12:02:00 PM.

woah havent blogged for ages
computer was downnnn cause of rewiring and all the shitxz hahahaha now its ok liao ;D
yesterday was teacher's day celebrations
urmmmmm . think its quite dumb la
why the school wont let us off early to visit our secondary schools ??? wahlau !
i swear ours is the only jc which lets us off at 1pm la .. so tempted to climb the gates and all
you wanna keep us in school
all the more we wanna escape
get it ? its called reverse psychologyyyy -.-
eh no
its called the rebellious nature of human . haha .
thursday was freaking fun after schoool (:
was suppose to eat with peiwen and sukie after schooool .
saw jerome and edward on the wayy
changed my mind and decided to eat with them since we havent ate together for agessss .
keith came along tooooo and we just ate and crapped and gossiped and talked hahaha
totally unplanned i swear .
wanted to go for neoprints but our dear jerome refused .
finally managed to persuade him to come along HAHAHAHAHAH will post the neoprints up when i get it scanned or something
its uber funny (:
pooor shiyuan
i told him to go back first cause i was with my seniors
and he waited at my place busstop there for like .. i duno .. hours ??
felt damn bad and guilty la
was our 2ndmonth some more
haiz . what did i do to deserve someone so great like him ? i wonder ..
(: but anyway yes i love the cd v much thanks so much my dear ;D
went for army open house with peiwen
reached there
luckily i brought extra shorts and shirt along if not peiwen would have missed out on alot of the activities
and she says she loves me for that HAHAHAHA i know ;D
we tried repelling, flying fox, cargo net, dark tunnel, suicide window, ippt, climbing over the wall, the steps thingy
and shooting SAR21 ;D I GOT MY MARKSMAN YAY !
and HAHA i think me and peiwen v famous among the army guys alrdy la -.-
cause the both of us v siao and talk alot one HAHAHAHA dan i think quite alot still remember us even when we're walking out of the place hahahaha i wanna go back there again !!!!!!
ate at jurong point with peiwen, mrt-ed back to yishun
WE SAW MERLYN ON THE MRT !!!! OMG SO SO SO SO SO HAPPY !!!!!!! ;DDDDDD
luckily we managed to get seats all the way yay ;D
so great catching up with merl (((((:
currently in love with BOYS LIKE GIRLS' The Great Escape (:
will post pics next time .
All of the wasted time
The hours that were left behind
The answers that we'll never find
They don't mean a thing tonight
<3

9/01/2007 11:45:00 AM.